WOOT. i am excited, not only did i have the coolest weekend in arizona, i ran 3 miles in 33 minutes and 20 seconds yesterday! this is a crazy accomplishment for me because just 6 months ago i couldn't even run a mile in under 12 minutes.

so here is more on the arizona trip...

so on saturday i had the most exciting day in arizona (thus far). the biosphere 2 was everything i imagined... its pretty crazy that i was a privately owned and run venture. it took 150 million dollars to construct and cost ten to thirty thousand dollars a month to run it sealed. to make sure the whole building is air tight, they even surrounded the basement with a 1/2 inch thick stainless steel wall! when i read about this when i was younger i was so sure that we would be living in space in no time... but there were plenty of problems and the second team only lasted for 6 months. i was awestruck by the different environments. the desert was hot and dry. the rainforest was humid. the oceans still had fish and coral living in it. i felt like i stepped in to what the future might be like. i recommend everyone to visit!

so saturday i go back to the hotel to check in with my flight... then i realize... OMG i'm not leaving until MONDAY (i had completely forgot).

now i have to go to work so i'll comtinue later!

YAY. i'm in arizona... getting here was hectic and stressful but i've had the best weekend here yet!

it all started with me procrastinating 110% which is weird because i usually get really nervous that something might wrong or i might forget something... but i didn't start packing until 5 am the morning of my flight.... which was at 7:40 am. i left home at 6... got to the airport and OF COURSE like i feared lot B and C were full (well DUH its thanksgiving weekend...) and i panicked and went in the first covered parking lot. i THINK it was 10.91 per day... lol i'm not sure... but i have AAA so hopefully it won't be that expensive. so i got to the southwest terminal 40 minutes before the flight and they tell me my baggage is not guaranteed to arrive at tuscon. glup. well, whatever... so i proceed to the gate.

after arriving in tuscon i picked up my luggage (which arrived there with me, YAY) and head to the enterprise rental area... where i almost end up driving a KIA again (but i complained and complained... and got a pontiac G6!!). YES! it was a nice car with some power. i arrive in sierra vista, no problem.

so saturday we sepend the day in tuscon! paul is driving and won't tell me where we are going and we end up in none other than the BIOSPHERE 2!!! i am CRAZY estatic!! i read about this place in awe

omg i forgot i had the car and paul is waiting for me will blog later.

i am thankful for love.
i am thankful for love and family.
i am thankful for love, family, and strengh.
i am thankful for love, family, strengh, and chance.

i am thankful for finding happiness in so many places.

fort huachuca, arizona
torrance, california
palos verdes, california
on the phone with my love
the sky
the clouds
during yoga
in the car while i am driving (haha)
playing WoW with nasoraki

my thought of the day:

i need better posture. actually it hurts when i slouch. now my body feels better sitting up straight. i just need to keep it that way.

i need to stop feeling fat. i used to wear size 9~11, but now i wear size 3~5. i should feel great but i feel like my legs are enormous still (but i bought a skirt at the levi's store)! i know i am thinner because of the way my old 518's fit me. i tried on skinny jeans too... they fit but unfortunately they don't come in super lows (i was so happy i wouldn't need to cuff them!!)

518 > every other jeans i've tried. i never realized how great they are until i tried other kinds of jeans.

feeling great in general but i miss paul. he FINALLY got his orders changed... woot! one step closer to moving...

going to visit him this weekend. YAY!

so this weekend sucked. so first i thought i might be able to go and see him... then it wasn't so... so i canceled my flight... but it seems like i would have been able to see him... atleast on post... so basically we are both pissed and saved like 200 bucks. i was a little sad he went out with his buddies tho... i wish i was there. now i have to wait 2 weeks. /sigh

BAH. my plans to hit the AZ this weekend might have gotten botched. BLEH. something happend with some idiots in his company. GAH.

i'm just sittin here for a call from paul WTF is gonna happen with our weekend. with the problem with the rental and the holiday weekend traveling costs and such... maybe its a sign that i should wait till thanksgiving... but i want to see him. /pout

i think a lot of things wrong today are stemming from people who believe that people should be a certain way or that we should believe in some certain ideology and that is the only way. the my way or the highway mentality. believe it or not, this happens before we are born... with the doctors who decide how we should be born (i'm crazy about midwifery, homebirths, and having choices in the manner which we give birth to children... that could be a whole other blog post). then our gender separation (pink for girls and blue for boys... it was hard to find anything gender neutral at baby gap! this is especially because we have tests to confirm the sex of our children.). this way of thinking seeps into our school, work place and society as a whole.

yesterday a co-worker of mine (whose husband served in the airforce for 22+ years) and i were talking about iraq and the problems there. is democracy what they truly need? or is it a government created based on their religion? or a rightous dictator? i really don't know the answer but i feel like we are sending our men there to not protect freedom, but to unleash a sense of our way or the highway down their throats... and because of the nature of my work (working with kids if any of you don't know) i think this will only make then defiant and fight us, like children who do want want to be told what to do. no one wants to be told what to do. and i'm sure muslims and islamic people don't want a country made of mostly christians telling them what to do either.

what we need is peace in iraq. maybe it will come along with democracy. maybe it won't. whatever it is, the iraqui people must bring it forth themselves. i'm praying that they will.

my thought of the day:

most of us believe in one god. we also believe that there is a place where there will be peace, we will be provided with everything we need, and there will be no worries. sometimes it is called Heaven, Nirvana, or Jannah. some believe by believeing that Jesus is out lord and savior, praying to Allah (may peace be upon Him), seeking enlightment within one self, or just simply doing good deeds to help us gain a place in that place we so long for.

if we are already here, so why can't we make this our paradise?

we don't need to die to live in paradise.

i am thinking about:

the greater cycle of things... like the cosmic cycles, platonic year, lunar cycles, and how i feel deeply interwined with the universe as a whole.

it all started today... an emontionally charged day, also a full moon.

wow november is here. i can't believe it. its already been two months since the school year started. its kinda sad how i keep track of how fast the year goes that way...

i miss paul dearly. i'm glad each day goes by fast. love tortures me. it makes my heart ache. it makes me sad. love also makes me happy. i was so happy last weekend! estatic to the core. holding him in my arms, kissing him... it all makes it up in the end. love is grand.