today was my baby shower. thanks for all the wonderful thoughts and gifts. now it feels weird. the day is almost here. jake will be here.

my mom is still pressing me to move to my grandma's house which i flatly refused. i also introduced her to my doula. i don't know if she was disappointed that i got a doula, but i believed that this is the best way to mediate the whole deal with my parents. i'm kinda sad that i had to put lysa in such a position but i think its for the best. also it helps lysa get her doula certificate.

katie didn't freak out when kaylin was around which eased my mind even MORE. she can ease into her role of big sister. i'm glad that i've been desensitizing her to children.

once i get all of his clothes washed, his co sleeper set up, his pack n play set up and buy his diapers i'm ready!

now nesting has kicked in, all i want to do tomorrow is to clean and get ready. woo.

9 years.

thats how long we've been together.

thats a long time. :P

supposedly this anniversary is null and void now because i was upgraded from 'girlfriend' status to 'wife'. i could live with that.

hypnobirthing class day 2 and doula meeting

so through my forgetfulness induced by my pregnancy i finally remembered to call my doula that ellie had recommended. she is also a massage therapist. she is just a trainee so she is a little... 'noobie' (which is seriously the only word i can think of to explain the situation), but she is really nice so i was excited to see her before my hypnobirthing class today.

so we did this crazy exercise called 'glove relaxation'. it was crazy because i didn't know what to expect, yet it worked like it should. it was a exercise were you were 'deepened'. then ellie said some prompts to make your hand 'feel' numb and transfer the numbness to your cheek. my hand indeed felt numb! she does these exercises just to teach us that with the power of the mind that you CAN have a great birthing experience. i was awestruck and i'm even MORE satisfied with the approach i am taking with this birth.

EDIT: whoa, this was so posted on the wrong blog (haha) but i'm keeping it here for some who may not know the existance of my baby blog here: http://babyyoshimoto.blogspot.com

i'm so emotionally ready for jake to come its not even funny. i don't want to be pregnant anymore, i want to be a momma. a lot of my dreams have been about breastfeeding, holding him, and just my two boys being here with me. of course IDEALLY i need to wait 3 more weeks. i read at 35 weeks the babies born at that time have 99% survival rate.

now am i ready as in... the goods, all the 'stuff' that comes with this? um... no. i am not at all ready for anything. lol. i have a small bag of clothes and thats it. HAHA. i don't even have a car seat... but i want him here sooo bad!

i know jake is not that kind of baby. he's been a good boy, he hasn't caused any problems and with this kind of temperament he's probably thinking, look mom, i'm gonna come out when you are good and ready so get on with it! besides, its comfortable in here!!!

allergies suck. this weather wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't kicking up dust from the fires and driving me insane. its hard for me to sleep so now i'm falling alseep early... as in 9 pm and i'm not waking up till my usual 8:30.

on the upside, allison mentioned that i should relax in the pool... and i think this weather is perfect.... i may just go do that.

so it is 63 degrees, and because i am pregnant and been living in colorado for the past year its HOT. i was sweating like crazy at the dog park and almost everyone had jackets on (except a few guys and me... there was even a pregnant lady with a jacket on!). its interesting who weather effects you. before i moved to colorado i definitely would have thought about tying that sweatshirt around my waist when it was 60 degrees. if it was 50 degrees i would have definitely be wearing a sweatshirt and maybe my leather jacket or the heavy jacket paul bought me over that. now, i survive well in the 50s with just a shirt and a sweatshirt. if it hit the 30s, i would wear a long sleeve under the shirt but i'd still be comfortable.

i haven't worn that heave jacket this season yet... :P

happy new year! i'm a little late but for new years i was running around and i had work today.

yea... i am still at work. some days i feel great, some days i don't. today is one of those days that i didn't want to go to work but once i got there wasn't all that bad. days like this one totally mess with me. i was feeling out of breath and more tired than usual last week so i was thinking that maybe its about time i finally go on maternity leave... but then the out of breathness was just jake sticking his feet in my ribs (so the doctor says) and the tiredness isn't too bad if i sleep in a little bit (so i was almost late to work today) heh.