today we went to tinker! had SO much fun! we all created cool stuff. i didn't have my camera with me. boo. which reminds me that i am so pissed right now. i almost died on the way to the mall. there was a crazy SUV driver in front of me on madrona... so he is big so i couldn't see the light... he was speeding his way and didn't slow down... and at the line instead of continuing he quickly changed lanes and ran the RED LIGHT... and there was a car stopped at the red light! i was going full speed (35 mph) because i thought it was still green. i changed lanes (thank GOD there was no one n the left lane) and i barely stopped at the light. if there was someone to the left of me, i would definately been in an accident... a pretty big one at that. well my heart is pounding at like a million mph... and i go to the mall to shop... and i forget a bag in the dressing room... AND to top it off i lost my camera battery somewhere between kristen's house and the car... and tommorow we are going to disneyland (brushes bad luck off).

8 days til i am in paul's arms...

tomorrow marks the last day of summer camp. 10 weeks went by so fast. it has been one of the best years. lots of fun camp memories.

i don't know if any of you guys know but there is a fight we are fighting right now in congress, and i affects the internet as we know it.

the internet was founded on the principle that all sites can be accessed equally without bias. its called net neutrality. even if you are huge like yahoo, or an average joe like myself... i could create a site and anyone would be able to access it without any difference in connectivity. it basically has been the very reason that the world wide web has grown into a massive entity.

big telecommunication companies such as AT&T and bellsouth are lobbying to create a 2 tier internet. it means even if we do have a fast connection to the internet, we might have trouble connecting to certain sites that we want to see because the owner of the site does not have the money to pay for it... but this is ONLY the beginning.

if we do deregulate the internet, it means that the if telecommunication companies can even RESTRICT connections to some sites that they might not want you to see by degrading the connection... just because they can!

and here is some even MORE bad news... this bill has PASSED the HOUSE OF REPS... and is moving to the senate to be voted on!

please save the internet! please be informed!

i am so lucky to have someone so devoted to me as much as i am devoted to him. i was texting paul the other day and he asked me to check flights from LA to sierra vista. there was none. they only fly locally from phoenix. so anyway i was checking all that stuff out until he just simply texts me... book it. huh? book the flight he says. so i did. and i booked a hotel. and a car.

i didn't think that paul just might be missing me as i miss him everyday. i love this feeling of being in love.

... snakes on a plane... is... so... funny... i LOVE IT!

so i am going back to arizona on labor day weekend. i can't wait. i'm flying of course (haha).

for some reason i am kinda happy... because when i think about what has happened the last week, it could have been worse... WAY WORSE. i am going back to the gym tommorow finally. i am so groggy all day long unless i go and i feel like i've gained a bazillion pounds (haha).

the GOOD the BAD and the UGLY in arizona

GOOD: i got to see paul. i kissed him and hugged him and hung out with him. the hilton we stayed at was SO NICE. the 3 hour drive between palm springs and pheonix wasn't that bad (i drove it). enterprise rental car reimbursts us the car rental fees for the entire trip. paul has better signal after he updated his PRL. We got to take monday off so we didn't have to drive 14 hours (THANK YOU rochelle) on sunday.

BAD: i had to drive between tucson and fort huachuca twice (twice, because i forgot the rental agreement that i did not need the second time to went... ><). some of my time with paul was cut short by some kind of flak jacket turn in.

UGLY: on saturday, our car got broken into while we stopped for lunch right outside of pheonix. they stole paul's laptop AND tower, but not the TV. we had to wait about an HOUR and a HALF in the heat for the police woman to show up. then there was an accident on the 2 lane highway so the traffic was at a complete stop. alison and i took this pic on the 10. that is our feet on the interstate 10.

thats about it. thanks alison for putting up with me.

so i gave my co worker my insurance info... and well they just messed with our pay period so i really didn't get short changed in the pay department. life unwinds from the tight knot it became.

i have respect for people who can stay positive through anything. i would like to be that kind of person but its so hard. fucking hard. i'm trying my hardest not to cry. i wish paul were here. he could make things so much more better with his smile. well i have to wait 2 more days!

so i backed into a co worker today. which isn't all that bad for my first accident. i wasn't shaken up at all... i was thinking that well, these things happen and i'll just have to deal with it. so i am dealing with it.

this is a totally different outlook i have on life now and i am excited! i am excited that i can 'take care' of things now instead of freaking out. hooray for me!

friday i leave for arizona. i'm a little scared. i never been on a trip with just someone else. i'm scared that i might mess something up. a part of me doesn't want to go... but i'm not giving into that. i am going to have fun. i am afraid that i won't find anything in common with alison and the whole weekend will be akward. well, although we have food in common. haha. food is the reason we became friends. food is the reason i had courage to ask her if she wanted to hang out with me.

i am a totally pathetic person. what am i so afraid of?? i hope, know this trip will change me for the better.

so after staying at the party till 2 :30 am, my body decided to wake up at 7:45 this morning... UGH. i wish i could have slept in a little bit more... but now that i think of it waking up at 7:45 would be sleeping in... because i wake up (well, try to wake up) at 5 am every morning.

today i found my camera again!! it was in the center console in the car and i was so freaking annoyed because i knew 1. that it was somewhere in the car 2. that it couldn't have been stolen. so i don't know how it got there but i had the shutter bug after i had found it... and i took stupid pics of just stuff in the car. thank goodness i found it finally before the arizona trip...

so next friday alison and i are heading out to arizona with all of paul's electronics, drinks, and food. or and some change of clothes. i can't wait!

its been a crazy week.... i've mostly been busy.... no time to blog.

so anyway... went to a party with people from work... had a great time. still a little scared of the beer bong tho.

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