congraulations patti on your new bundle of joy.

i'm 26... born the year of the rooster...

yea! i'm finally over the freaking flu!! i still had a cough this morning, but it was gone by mid afternoon. i am back to 100% again... but the cough comes back depending on how cold it is. my 26th birthday was spent chilling with family. i didn't want to do anything big or anything this year... i didn't feel like celebrating. I'd have to say it was a pretty good birthday. went out with the sibs, did the saturday dinner with paul's dad and grandma. its still kinda weird to call him 'dad'. he's been paul's dad to me for so long (er... DUH).

i didn't get my ultimate birthday gift, which of course would be an all expense paid impromptu trip to arizona with GUARANTEED time with the hubby, but he was on LOCKDOWN... WTF is wrong with alpha anyway?

i need to plan for his graduation... then the move to colorado. HOORAH.

i can't sleep right now. its 3am. ugh.

i couldn't sleep so i played warcraft three. i hosted a footies map which in the end i was doomed. the opposing player was definitely stronger than i was (twice the kills, meaning x2 the gold, hero x2 stronger)... and there i was STILL trying to drag it longer than it could have. it's something that paul has instilled in me all these years of playing video games. NEVER give up. you never know when victory comes your way (or a satisfactory loss, in which case it was... a loss. /pout). of course the dude gets cocky and tells me that i should just quit because its GG (meaning Good Game if you didn't know).

i got the his base down half way... almost killed him twice. of course i was just happy at that.

its kind of scary to me how competitive i have gotten lately.

paul, its your fault. somehow, it always is. i love you. *muah*

i have the cold... but it hasn't knocked me out. that is the problem here. i want to do things but my body won't cooperate. i want to work, but i can't. my body aches but it wants to move. sheesh.

last weekend we(the sibs, mom, grandma and GRANDPA, my uncle and aunt) went to vegas. it was SO fun except for the fact that i lost my beloved camera. mom nagging at me and being 'the week' wasn't much... better yet... ANY help at all. i lost 400 dollars or so too. now that everything is over, i look back and think it wasn't so bad at all. it was great. my fave was going to gameworks with the siblings... brunch at ceasers palace came close second. the piano man played it had to be you. i love that song.

so all i seem to say lately is that i'm sad, i miss paul, etc. etc. so i will be taking time off my blog until i find some more positive thoughts i can post about.

paul bought me the pirate tokidoki le sac for me for my birthday! it was the style i wanted too. haha <3

happy valentines. it was a year ago today that paul and i went to the county courthouse to get our marriage license!! i am tired of thinking and wishing he was here... so i am just going to shower him with love when i get home from work. ;)

love that transcends time...



http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20070206/sc_nm/italy_embrace_dc

incase you missed it... (in which case, i did because i was driving to san diego...)



it is my absolute favorite commercial this year, hands down!

i saw patti and kyle and visited their condo. after the fact i was dissapointed i didn't get a picture of kyle's mom and her cute doggy toby and patti's gizmo and tori. see how HUGE she is?? and she isn't even 8 months pregnant yet. can't wait till the baby comes!!

kenneth masashi yoshimoto

uncle kenny goka (fought in WW2 with the 442nd)
uncle kenny luke

kayden masato yoshimoto
kay = paul's dad's name
den = uncle dennis

kade masao yoshimoto
lilia shizumi yoshimoto

not approved by the boss yet tho.

i don't know where to turn, but i don't want to turn to anyone anyway. so i turn to my blog...

i'm so down, so depressed.

HIS birthday is coming up, VALENTINES and then its my birthday. i will be spending these days just talking to him, just wondering if he gets it. what he says... i get confused. what i know... he is not confused. what happened yesterday was that i had just made up hat i had wanted to hear in my mind. i know he is not a mind reader and all he said was,

shesh go to yoga. it will make you feel better. it always does.

but what i wanted to hear was,

i miss you too honey, don't be so depressed. it would be February 10th in no time and we'll see each other.

i know i was just punishing him because he didn't say exactly what i want to hear. that is so wrong of me to do... but logic doesn't matter when you are full of emotion. in my perfect fantasy world he would know exactly what to say and he would know exactly how i feel. my perfect fantasy world bugs me.

so i ride this depression like a lonely day at the beach, waves crashing, cold, wet, miserable, and alone... and for some reason i have curly hair, and look like jennifer aniston.

maybe i saw this in a movie or something... actually i don't think i have seen any movie with jennifer aniston.