katie seems to be freaking thinking that she is a cat or something. i went to get a replacement ID and lo and behold.... yarn EVERYWHERE. i can not take her out on a walk because it is snowing. it is freaking cold. i love colorado. i need to clean up yarn.

i love my husband. i can't believe that he is my husband. i'm still on cloud nine after 7 almost 8 years.

its snowing! i found that if you got a coat to wear the -3 degrees C weather isn't too bad. haha

weather has been REALLY nice. i almost want the snow to come... but it becomes ridiculously cold (below freezing sometimes) and then i'm like forget it. i am basking in the sun :D

paul is hoping to get med boarded. our neighbor's husband deployed last week and secretly i think it hit him hard. he is leaving his 7 month old behind too. he didn't go to sending off, i would have gone to be there for jen but paul didn't want to go. he has also been dealing with a lot of bullcrap at work (which actually isn't his fault) which in the end made him do a 24 on 8 off (they didn't have a driver so instead of calling the morning guy for the next day they called him the night guy instead!!!) then 12 on then an 8 off 16 on (because of halloween). i would be mad to if you had to just sit there and do 'cold weather training' 48+ hours within 72 hours (it was supposed to be a guard duty... but they weren't guarding anything... weapons weren't even loaded ><

he is seriously thinking of not reenlisting. i guess we will know when the time comes.

i should remember to update this more often...

i don't even remember was the last time i did...

i am finally lifting from my bout with depression. i think the trip back home helped... although i wish i could have gone home under better circumstances, but it really made me feel like cali isn't too far... as long as i can dish out 3~400 dollars for a plane ticket (which i can't often but it would be nice). baby thing isn't going too well, but i am taking it a month at a time. i freak out every time when that time of the month comes. i get so angry!!! i'm sure my body is still healing, my heart is still healing. i feel like i've made a lot of progress this month coping. also zaskia having her baby 3 months early has also freaked me out... and it made me think about how yes, god does have a plan for me and he wants it prefect for me. so now i am patiently waiting. :D