more i get closer to birthing and more i talk to people, i find out that there are a lot of misconceptions about a lot of things.

for instance, today paul's mom said, "OH i thought you got a doula because you were going to give birth naturally."

there are 2 kinds, a birth doula (used a lot for unmedicated births but not necessarily only for unmedicated births) and a postpartum doula (breastfeeding support and help adjusting to your new life). doulas aren't for only people who are birthing naturally. they are a good source of information, trained in many different areas of birthing, breastfeeding, and life after birth of a child.

for instance i did not know that 70% of boys are no longer circumcised. i knew that now it was considered a 'cosmetic' procedure, but i was not aware of the fact that not a lot of people choose to do it anymore. my doula was kind of share that information with me, especially because it may interfere with breastfeeding (which she knows it is very important to me).

i have other concerns too but my brain has been fried. brb.

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i went to the hospital tour today. it feels 'final'. i will be giving birth in the next few weeks. paul will be here, i will be a mom and my life forever changed!

i wish i was nervous, because i am not... but i am in this weird gray area. i guess i'm not nervous about jake's arrival, i'm nervous that i might hit a snag that i have no control over.

for instance, what if breastfeeding doesn't work like i thought it would?

what if jake is colic?

now its the waiting game...

waiting for paul to come home.
waiting for jake to be born...

stay in there kid. i'm not ready for you. LOL.

so if you guys read my baby blog, i am going to be monitored to make sure he is not distressed do to my stubborn blood pressure levels. then it got me thinking... omg he could be born TODAY. am i ready?

happy birthday my love.