i get to talk to paul everyday yet my heart gets heavier everyday. i'm starting to get nervous about everything... becoming a parent (a 'single' one at that for 6 months) is the big deal. no matter how much people say that we will be good parents it does scare me. how do i deal with my parents? what if this baby is fussy? what if what if what if. i can't get my thoughts straight at all right now. i am going to go down stairs and mediate and center.