GRRR.... i have missed another phone call and i feel bad, pissed, and sad that i did. it would have been the only time he could call this week and i missed it. *bangs head on wall* on another note i am VERY excited that i made my traveling arrangements this week. he has three weeks to go and next week is fourth of july. i am SO excited my heart is racing. the girls on the forums said that i will get worse as the end comes near. boy they were right. i am hella excited and my heart hurts.

i had a dream about him last night. paul was in his class A greens and we just stood there and i was VERY happy. we were both smiling and just existing... on cloud nine... i wasn't even crying (which i was surprised about) and i woke up. i wasn't sad when i woke up like i thought i would be. i just woke up and did my thing. that was wierd. oh well. maybe i just grew up.